load ‘em up

I have finally begun to pack. I leave for Big Bend in less than a week. OMG! I have everything packed up except for things that I can’t really pack up yet…clothes and stuff. I get my car back on Friday so I will be able to actually pack up the car…hopefully everything will fit!! It seems like my pile o’ stuff to take has doubled in size since I first made my list!

As Friday grows near I am getting more anxious about my car! It had better be fixed tomorrow or I will freak out! These people are the worst EVER! Billy Owens Collision is HoRrIbLe just so you know! Not that you will ever be able to find them bacause they don’t even have a sign! I don’t even know why I left my car at this posunk stupid shop…but I did…and they are causing me so much heartache! Grr to them!

Just when I am not looking for a relationship because I am leaving…here comes the best relationship ever. Even more interesting is that he is going this weekend to the Nascar races in Montgomery or something and will be back the day before I leave! One day! We went to a movie tonight and I left early because I knew he had to pack…but we have spent almost every last moment together the past week!! We went to the fair…he came with me to Pensacola for my going away thingy…tonight we went to a movie…hmmm…I am gunna miss him! It will be worth it though! I will have a lot of fun! And he will miss me

what a slacker

Forgive me bloggers…for a have sinned…it has been 2 days since my last confession. I would like to tell you that a lot has happened in the past few days. Not anything that I can say public…but just a heads up. the several things have actually shaped the way that I will think about things from now on. Which is a great thing. I am very excited about the changes that will come in the future as well. One more month. It is getting really close. There are a few things here that make me want to stay, but who knows how that will work out anyways. I really hope that things in the past can be forgotten and that we could try everything again. I have changed so much in the past few years…in a big way. Not only with maturity, but also with security. My life is so much more care free now with the love of my parents…and the ability for them to be there for me emotionally. It makes me be able to live my life the way I want to rather than worrying about protecting myself and my heart from anything. I will just keep my fingers crossed. If it works out, it works out…if it doesn’t, it doesn’t…but I would love it if it did!!

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speaking of close calls…this post was almost a day late…

Today was very productive…I sorted everything…clothes, purses, shoes, jackets, crap…I was cut throat!! Things I never used or never wore were put into a big black trash bag…two and a half 30 gallon trash bags to be exact…and taken to the Waterfront Mission. I was very pleased. I have wanted to get rid of that old stuff forever.

I also bought everything I need for the start of my trip…including lots of canned food like soup, tuna fish and veggies…also order a pair of nice looking hiking shoes on-line…then read the reviews There were three saying that the tongue is too short…so I hope that I get a new model or something. I even bought extra shampoo, conditioner, face wash, bar soap, bug spray, sun block…binoculars…a bike rack!! Anything I could think of that I know that I would need. This way after I pay my rent and phone bill this month all of my money is going to be for the trip. I will know my exact budget which makes me feel good.

As for my love life right now…it is retarded as usual. Nothing too exciting. But that is nothing new! Lets keep our fingers crossed that Erin gets to make out with someone before she disappears for 3 months!